Just Letting It Out

You gotta learn to make friends and become more social. I have been watching you and it seems that you have gotten a lot worst lately. You can blame some of that to currently being a vegan but as of today you put an end to that right? You recently tweeted that you much rather be fat and somewhat happy versus losing weight and more miserable than “normal”. So first of all, stop being vegan so you can become a tad more happy. I know you will go through a small withdrawal moment, where you would get a little more depressed, but deal with it. Do you remember the reason why you decided to become vegan again? It was because you were way too happy. Now its time to start to regain some of that happiness. Secondly, go out and socialize. I know, I know easier said than done, but you have to do this. I noticed recently that during your last few gigs, you went out of your way to avoid people. Why is that? The “pilot” gigs were … I wrote all these things before your day turned around. You decide to contribute to a conversation with the rest of the background and you actually had a footloose moment for a bit. It was pretty interesting watching you dance in the glass hallway like no one was looking, but in actuality everyone was watching. Members of the crew noticing, waving, and smiling at you, it was interesting. Unfortunately, it was a little too late for most of them to know your name, like the rest of the background. Of the twelve returning background, you are the only one they did not know the name of, and because of that, if the show has good ratings for its pilot, you most likely wont become a regular like the rest of the group. Socializing is hard at times but there are benefits to it. Oh and before I forget, you do have skills in socializing. Remember the cute black girl, who was into cars? The one you talked to for 20 minutes even while her car was still running. It seemed to me that she waited for you, plus she took a second look at you despite the fact that she has a boyfriend. You silver-tougued devil, you.

I know that you just finished every episode and every movie of Daria, and you miss her already. It’s ok man, a lot of people miss this show. They just don’t make them like this anymore. A show that has a little drama but not too much, humor that isn’t tasteless, stupid, or vulgar and a protagonist who doesn’t want to be liked but you can’t help but like her. It’s wishful thinking to think that they would make new episodes, like what they did with Beavis and Butthead, but you know it will never happen. This type of show would never appeal to this generation. I know you miss her and I know that you know she will never come back. Well, I miss her too, I miss Daria. La la la la la …

I know your thinking about going to bar either tonight or tomorrow night because you don’t feel that awesome right now, but don’t go. Going to a bar should be a social event not a reason to drink. We both know that if you feel like crap and you enter a social situation, you will feel worst and drink more. I know right now you want to go out of the house, but its not the best thing to do. You going to a bar alone is an open invitation for even more misery. Not to mention, if you just drink at home you will save a lot of money and keep people out of your business. So in short, limit your drinking and if you need to drink alone just drink at home.

So today was your first bad day on the job. So what? The handful of people that talked to you said that you will eventually have a bad day. Today is the first of many that you will have if you decide to continue with a career in the entertainment industry. I know that it started out good, you met a girl who looked a lot like a slightly skinnier Katy Perry but unfortunately that was the highlight of your day. Some Russian guy came in and started talking to her and ever since if you two were left alone it was just met with awkward silence. Nearing the end of the day, I know that the director didn’t want you in the scene because he thought you were ugly, but you know that you are not suppose to take it personal. The reason why you were so pissed off wasn’t because he didn’t want you in the scene but because he just didn’t say why, he just beat around the bush. Because of all this crap when you smelled the delicious food you didn’t feel like eating, you just went and smoked 3 filtered cigars, which you actually inhaled. Now your are home, you feel like crap, your stomach hurts and you are really hungry. At least you calmed down by now, now go eat something but not to much. Oh and fyi, during your awkward silence moments with “Katy Perry”, it seemed that she really wanted you to talk to her. Just saying.

Its been awhile since you posted something on here. What do you want to talk about? Wait, let me guess, Her? I’m right, correct? Why are you so fixated on Her? You two haven’t even talked in such a long time. I am pretty sure that She has already moved on and hardly remembers you. No matter how much we want things to stay the same, they never will. We should just go with the flow and hope for the best. I want to say something corny here like, “there’s plenty of other fish in the sea,” but you wouldn’t say that, would you? You’d probably say, “have a beer or a bottle of vodka, this will pass,” or maybe “let’s get back into WoW.” I know that you keep your walls up because you don’t like people getting in but it happens, deal with it. We have to leave the past where it is. This is life, welcome.

i understand why you are so depressed right now. you don’t belong to many groups but a group you truly belong to is the xbox live community and you can’t join the millions of them that are playing modern warfare 3 right now. the only person you can blame is yourself and that makes you feel even more like shit. spending the whole day trying to find the hardened edition to no success. you should of just been a boy scout toward this like you did on any other video game but you didn’t, and now you are paying the price. i am sorry i failed you. please don’t do anything you might regret.